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LATEST NEWS:

On July 27th, at 06.40hrs in the morning Rafaela, Ulla’s and Feri’s daugther, gave birth to a baby boy. Baby weighed 4,3 kgs and was 54cms tall. Which is no wonder as his father, Ronnie, Rafaela’s boyfriend is a tall and big guy. Rafaela is smallish though. All are well. Whole family (Rafaela and Ronnie and baby, and Ulla and Feri and Igor the dog) is presently organizing some flat-swopping-changing (in the area where they already live) and waiting to see if all goes through the way they want it. In that case they move in September. All across the yard…

I sent off a postcard to Peter F. the other day to inquire if all was well with him as I hadn’t heard from him for a very long time (learning about Tedy made me think – where IS everybody else?). Got a letter this morning, in his spidery, extremely small handwriting which almost needs a magnifying glass to read, that told me he had sold his house, moved to a smaller flat, changed email, changed mobile number, paid his loans, went twice to Singapore, once to the Philippines (he was married for a while to a Philipine woman, but is long since divorced from her), and once to Tel Aviv. And that he got on the wrong foot with the unemployment agency which caused them to withdraw his payment and is unemployed, soon without any money, but plans to take up his studies again (I have no idea what he studies, but I think it is mathematics). Housemoney now finished. Doesn’t surprise me. He is the most careless person I know when it comes to money. Wonder when he had intended to tell me about all this if I hadn’t written to him? I’ll call him one of the next days.

Armand hasn’t called since June 26th – which is long ago for being him. He usually calls from Manchester about every second or third week. I hope everything is well with him. Emailed him the other day about Rafaela’s baby, but I know Armand is not all that good at checking his email. Do I have to call him? I’d rather not.

My neighbour goes to her sister in the north tomorrow night for three weeks. Which means watering all her plants both inside and on the balcony and the gallery and bringing in the mail and keeping an eye on her flat. No big problem as she is next door. She does the same for me when I go away somewhere.

Weather is still not all that good. Sunny and humid yesterday. Very grey but warm today but no rain. Heavy rains expected to begin during the coming night.

I need more sun and light. This weather is depressing.

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When it rains, it pours…

WHEN IT RAINS IT POURS… it really does. I should never had said on July 16th that I hoped it would rain all of the week when I was going to be at work in the office in town. It started on Sunday July 17th with a thunder- and hailstorm with a heavy downpour that drenched everything. The hailstones were about 1,5 cm in diameter and made big, round holes in the leaves of my pelargonias on the balcony before I had moved them closer to the wall. It has rained ever since. The nature absolutely needed it (which you can see from the color of the grass above), but… it would have been good with something in between very sunny and dry and warm and very wet and copious amounts of rain. The entrance to my house downstairs, which is at the bottom of a hill, got flooded so you had to wade in and out of the house. The garage under the house was probably also flooded. They say it will continue to rain for most of this week too. Feels like autumn with this grey, very dark and wet weather. It is warm outside though with about 20 centigrades.


The pictures above and below were shot by me during the worst hailstorm on July 17th, 2005.

It is again pouring when I write this. Thundering too.

Wonder when the sun will appear the next time so I can use my sunchair again – now under plastic. The sun – when there is a sun – is on the balcony in the morning and until around 11.30 AM. A nice place for breakfast in the sun and reading the morning paper.

The yellow-brown area in the second image is the lawn in the yard. Grass seemingly all dead as you can see. Now, a bit more than a week later, that grass is green again. So it wasn’t really dead after all. Just very dry.

By now all warnings for risk of forest fires are over. And those that started in the south of Sweden no longer burn. It is still prohibited to grill though except on your own land.

All grass pollen is also finally gone and I can breath again and no longer have itching eyes. What a relief. I still sneeze though. Guess there is still some pollen inside the flat.

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The Boohiss Incident on the InDesign mailinglist

THE BOOHISS INCIDENT ON THE INDESIGN MAILINGLIST is a report about what can happen on a public mailinglist, in this case the InDesign mailinglist at OmniPilot (formerly Blueworld, later Lassosoft) when somebody chooses to misunderstand and to read in meanings into something despite what they think is there is not.

Another heading for this report could be BECAUSE HE/SHE/WE COULD which were the keywords for the outbrake.

The mails appear approximately in the order they were sent to the list. I’ve deleted parts of the emails that are not interesting in this context, and I’ve deleted the names of the authors in most cases, and their email-addresses in all cases.

This is where it started with a comment I made to an ongoing disussion about font management programs:

On Mar 20, 2005, at 10:34 PM, wrote:

Mostly because i can, because i’m always interested in what’s possible.

To which fc wrote in response On 21 mar 2005, at 15.53

Good enough answer for me!

And I answered on 21 March 2005 16.02.35 MET

Hmm. Just this morning read an article quoting Bill Clinton saying he did what he did just because he could (concerning Monica)… seems to be a valid reason these days.

To which Isabelle answered with this outbreak on March 21 st 2005 at 18.34.55 MET:

BOO! HISS! Not on this list too! It would be nice if there is somewhere I can go without people bringing up politics.

At the very least it would be nice if a reply like this carried an OT tag so I could open at my own risk. 🙁

How disappointing, on this, of all lists.

So I answered on March 21st 2005 at 18.54.59 MET:

?? I really think you are overreacting and being overly sensitive here 😉

Nothing political in that comment, not in meaning and not in intention.

We were discussing reasons for doing things (in this case using the Font and DA Mover in Classic), among other things the reason “because I could”.

This came to mind then because of something I read this morning.

And just like a lot (and I mean a LOT) of other things the last half year or so has not been labelled OT there was no reason to do it here either.

To which FCLA commented:

Bravo, Nini! Crank it up.

A few rigid young “professionals” have taken over the list and have drained it of humour. It amazes me that MB is allowed to birth the occasional pun run. Not that the InDesign list was ever a barrel of laughs like the PageMaker list could be at times, of course. A bit dry from the offset. But speaking as one who goes back to the old PageMaker forums on AOL, this is sad to see. Very sad to see indeed.

And E. commented the following on March 21st at 18.59.21 MET to Isabells outbrake:

This is not politics. This is a humorous observation of a current trend. Please … I’m only saying this because I can … (or can’t I?)

To which F commented:

Yes, you can. And I’m glad you did. 🙂

So fc wrote:

Oooh – I’m going to be a Bad Boy now…

By the way, have you heard the one about Monica taking her dress to a hard-of-hearing dry cleaner?

So BillB answered:

Oooh – I’m going to be a Bad Boy now…

By the way, have you heard the one about Monica taking her dress to a hard-of-hearing dry cleaner?

And I am unsubscribing.

To the same comment from Isabelle, Bob answered on March 21st at 21.00.18 MET:

Oh for pity’s sake, lighten up. I don’t think Nini (who isn’t a US citizen) was being political.

And Rick commented:

What?s a little humor during the day while we all work?

To Bill JS answered:

If you change the channel how will you get your Daily Dose o’ Dov?

And Bob commented:

We should never have to read anything that we don’t find pleasing. 🙂

To all this Isabelle answered both offlist to certain of us and onlist the following:

People have written:

– This is not politics. This is a humorous observation of a current trend.Current? The situation mentioned is SEVEN years old.

– ?? I really think you are overreacting and being overly sensitive here 😉 Nothing political in that comment, not in meaning and not in intention.

Then why not be safe and use a neutral example (George Leigh Mallory)? Certainly there are more recent, or even older, examples in U.S. politics if you felt the need to add this type of commentary to an otherwise interesting and helpful thread.

– By the way, have you heard the one about

On another list or at least bearing an OT tag.

– Oh for pity’s sake, lighten up. I don’t think Nini (who isn’t a US citizen) was being political.

Oh, for pity’s sake? *You* may not think that the post was political, but do you get to decide for everyone? What’s so hard about respecting everyone and keeping such remarks off the list? I’d be just as unhappy with needless commentary on Prince Charles or Tony Blair or Vincente Fox.

– What?s a little humor during the day while we all work?

Who gets to decide what is humorous for the rest of us?

– We should never have to read anything that we don’t find pleasing. 🙂

PRECISELY why, all excuses aside, it should at the very least have been labelled OT. Better, there are chatter lists specifically for that kind of discussion.

As I said, disappointing.

–end of Isabelles long anser—

To which JS answered:

Two readings from “The Return of the Archons”

==================================

You have come as destroyers.

You bring an infection.

You have come to a world without hate,

without fear,

without conflict…

no war…

no disease…

no crime…

none of the ancient evils.

Landru seeks tranquillity…

peace for all…

the universal good.

The good must transcend the evil.

It shall be done.

So it has been since the beginning.

You will be absorbed.

Your individuality will merge

into the unity of good,

and in your submergence into the common being of the body,

you will find contentment

and fulfillment.

You will experience…

the absolute good.

======================================

Fascinating. This is merely a hollow tube, Captain

To which Bob commented:

Even this will offend someone on this list 🙂

My own comment to Isabelle was:

I am amazed … and I do not understand your reaction at all.

For heavens sake lighten up and don’t read things into to something it never was and make up plots that never existed.

And don’t please start a war about non-existing things.

Nobody has been political here.

Again: we were just making friendly non-sensical comments in general about the tendency to do things “just because you could/can”. And on a perfectly on topic matter: font handling.

To which Bob said:

Nini, you’re entitled to your opinion and I respect that. There was nothing wrong, displaced or offending in your comment this morning about you know who.

And Jims comment to Isabell was:

Did you start this new thread with an OT tag?

Usually the quickest way to stop a thread propagating, or indeed mutating into another one, is, don’t post!

For myself I find the asides just as interesting as the ID stuff… but I was raised on the QuarkXPress List…

To which Isabell answered:

– Did you start this new thread with an OT tag?

No, I did not, because I thought asking people to refrain from politics was completely on-topic. At the very least, the subject was completely descriptive of the contents.

If you think it is off-topic, I apologize to you and to others who may have been misled by my lack of tag. I’ll add it now. Again, my apologies.

P.S. Thank you for not making the “necessary on a firetruck?” joke I’ve heard all my life. I’m sure many of you have thought it; I appreciate your restraint. 😉

Then Isabelle came back with a vengance and said on March 22nd at 00.57.49 MET:

– There was nothing wrong, displaced or offending

In your opinion.

Not in mine.

Why is your opinion more important or more correct than mine?

I am sick of hearing about this adulterer, people making jokes as if what he did was nothing to worry about. It happened years ago yet he keeps being brought up. He hurt his wife, he devastated his daughter, and we think it’s okay to banter this indiscretion about as a joke on a professional list? How is that *not* offensive?

No. There are other lists for that kind of political talk. Stop making excuses for this.

– I am amazed … and I do not understand your reaction at all. For heavens sake lighten up and don’t read things into to something it never was and make up plots that never existed.

That you can’t see what you wrote or even apologize for offending, EVEN IF YOU DIDN’T MEAN TO, is what’s *really* amazing. It’s not up to you to understand my reaction, only to respect it! I don’t care if you didn’t intend to bring up a political matter, you did it, and you should stop making excuses and own up to it. I don’t care if you thought it was okay to skip the OT tag because others had done it, you thought wrong — their OT wasn’t disgusting or controversial or political. You made your choices.

– Again: we were just making friendly non-sensical comments in general about the tendency to do things “just because you could/can”. And on a perfectly on topic matter: font handling.

We weren’t making friendly nonsensical comments about ex-Presidents ruining people’s lives; that has nothing to do with font handling. You made a mistake with your offtopic post. That you continue to duck your responsibility in this matter speaks volumes.

Where do either of you draw the line for what’s permissible? Shall we make jokes about Terri Schiavo? abortion? the Pope’s illness? tsunami victims?

Abu Ghraib? Is nothing off limits?

I made a simple request: To keep politics off this professional list. It is beyond me why this request is being belittled as if it has no merit.

— end of Isabelles long reply —

To which Brian commented:

– What’s so hard about respecting everyone and keeping such remarks off the list?

What about respecting Nini’s right to use a familiar public news event as a parallel/contrasting point in an on topic discussion?!

It would be nice if certain members of this list would stop LOOKING for things to take offense to. It’s more then obvious that what Nini said was not of ill intent. So get over it already.

At which point D. said:

On this list, can’t we all just go back to making bad puns, 🙂 or better yet, solve problems associated with InDesign-based workflows?

To which JS answered:

Only a direct bad-good-pun intervention from MB can achieve what you’re asking.

or better yet, solve problems associated with InDesign-based workflows?

Aw come on…don’t you just love the smell of a good, and very tame, flame war in the morning?

And Brian said:

I suck and making bad puns. I’m too straight-laced! 😉

or better yet, solve problems associated with InDesign-based workflows?

This could work! 😉

So Isabelle said:

– or better yet, solve problems associated with InDesign-based workflows?

Amen. That’s all I was asking.

To which JS commented:

Oh, so what stopped you from asking an InDesign question today?

And DCs comment to D was:

I like to think of every bad pun as a workflow problem that never happened.

By then Bob said:

This has been flogged to death, but some hypersensitive individuals have used more band width whining about a very minor wise crack than the original ever could have wasted. Do what I do: if you don’t like a remark, ignore it — this is a fun, informative gang of people. If you had a guest at a party and they told a joke you weren’t thrilled with, would you have them thrown out?

Jeeze, give me a break.

Which HS commented with:

And then bomb Iraq and kill people because Monica was on the front page…

Because he could!

Bush and Iraq

<chorus now>

Pay no attention to that irony-challenged person….

To which I answered offlist:

No I won’t pay attention to that person. I am just shaking my head in disbelief of how paranoid and touchy some people can be.

She (or is it a he?) sent me (and a number of other people on the list) a mail offline and still goes on about the comment being political. Well, they wasn’t. She demands an apology. She isn’t getting one. That persons comments are so ridiculous they are unbelievable.

To which HS commented:

Especially given the fact that 99.9999% of your posts never mention politics.

The problem is that this is the internet; if it were in person, you would see how they are and avoid them….

And fc offlist said the following:

This off-list note to say that I thought your Bill Clinton remark was funny – and just fine. I think that any list like this gathers its share of weirdo’s (even me?) and they should be disregarded. I have learned a lot from this list, and from your posts. Please ignore the idiots & keep posting as you always have!

To which I answered offlist on March 22nd at 21.17.18 MET

No I won’t pay attention to that person. I am just shaking my head in disbelief of how paranoid and touchy some people can be.

She (or is it a he?) sent me (and some other people on the list) a real hysterical mail offline and still goes on about the comment being political. Well, it wasn’t. She demands an apology. She isn’t getting one.

That persons comments are so ridiculous they are unbelievable. Haven’t had the time today to answer that email (have been with clients all day) but I will when I get the time for it. Offlist. But reply I will or she will think she silenced me (I am not that easily silenced).

I will not carry on the thread on the list though as I couldn’t comment immediately due to the time differences and also because there is enough off-topic chatter on the list these days as it is. I normally try to not contribute to that, but the friendly non-sensical bantering we were going on with under that topic was hard to resist. Especially when someone mentioned “because he could” on the same day that I read a (actually political) comment about the danger of a society where things are done just “because you could”. That article was about some recent happenings here in Sweden in the Social Democratic Party’s Youth wing, but the comparison was done to that particular comment of Bill Clinton (and what that comment related to) and the discussion was about what a danger to a democratic society an attitude of doing things “because you can” could be. It was a very interesting (political) commentary. My comment though was as far from political that it could be though.

That person must have a dull life where laughing and joking about things must be scarce and she must be offended all the time then. Some people unfortunately are like that. I grew up with, made friends with, and have worked with mainly males all my life, and have never really had female friends. So I am very used to the way the joking can be when in a mainly male group and I do not get easily offended. I’m quite thick skinned (or whatever you say in English).

I’ll keep on posting as usual (on and off depending on how much time I have). Just haven’t had the time to since last night because of clients (had to turn over a smallish website to one and then to do some problem-solving plus teaching of OSX and InDesign at another persons place). I just now came home around 20.00hrs my time. It’s been a long day.

That person makes no difference to my participation on the Indesign list. Just proves some people needs to get real about real life and not take everything so seriously.

To which fc commented:

Can you imagine _living_ with someone like that? I would go find a bus to throw myself in front of!

My last reply to Isabelle, offlist on March 24th at 11.36.55 MET was:

Good Morning,

I probably shouldn’t reply to this at all, but I cannot leave it unanswered as that probably would make you think that your mail silenced me. Haven’t simply had the time to reply until now though due to clients and work.

On 22 mar 2005, at 00.57, you wrote in reply to me saying:

“- There was nothing wrong, displaced or offending”

In your opinion.

Not in mine.”

That is your problem. If you choose to misunderstand and read non-existing meanings into innocent non-sensical humorous bantering between list-collegues, there is nothing I, or anybody else, can do about it. That is your problem.

“Why is your opinion more important or more correct than mine?”

In this case because you are reading meanings into something that simply is not there my opinion is the valid one. I know what I was talking about, you apparently don’t. I also know what my intentions was, you apparently did/do not. There was nothing political about it. Nothing. It is all in how you choose to interpret an innocent comment.

“I am sick of hearing about this adulterer, people making jokes as if what he did was nothing to worry about. It happened years ago yet he keeps being brought up. He hurt his wife, he devastated his daughter, and we think it’s okay to banter this indiscretion about as a joke on a professional list? How is that *not* offensive?”

That is your problem. Jokes about public persons are not by automation offensive just because they are made and are something you will have to learn to live with in the real world. In this case the comment wasn’t really about the ex-president at all but about the phenomenon of being able to do things – any things – just because you can/could. You took it out of context and choose to interpret it in a way that was never intended. That the comment of “because I could” was the most important of it you choose to ignore. That that comment happened to be loosely associated to the ex-president was a coincident because of something I read that very morning (which actually neither had anything to do with him or those occurrences but also in that article with the whole philosophy around doing something just because you can).

“No. There are other lists for that kind of political talk. Stop making excuses for this.”

I will never make any excuses for the one innocent comment I made in that context. I am trying to explain to you that it is was not in bad intent or political. But I am not making excuses. Not to you or anybody else.

“I am amazed … and I do not understand your reaction at all.”

For heavens sake lighten up and don’t read things into to something it never was and make up plots that never existed.

“That you can’t see what you wrote or even apologize for offending, EVEN IF YOU DIDN’T MEAN TO, is what’s *really* amazing. It’s not up to you to understand my reaction, only to respect it! I don’t care if you didn’t intend to bring up a political matter, you did it, and you should stop making excuses and own up to it. I don’t care if you thought it was okay to skip the OT tag because others had done it, you thought wrong — their OT wasn’t disgusting or controversial or political. You made your choices.”

You are making mountains out of nothing here. I have nothing to apologise for and am not intending to give any apologise to anybody. Not to you or anybody else. There IS nothing to apologise for. I actually think YOU should apologise for your misinterpretation and your un-called for outburst.

Again: we were just making friendly non-sensical comments in general about the tendency to do things “just because you could/can”. And on a perfectly on topic matter: font handling.

“We weren’t making friendly nonsensical comments about ex-Presidents ruining people’s lives; that has nothing to do with font handling. You made a mistake with your offtopic post. That you continue to duck your responsibility in this matter speaks volumes.”

Again, there was nothing political in the comment. See above. I did no mistake. It belonged in the context it was made. Your outburst does not.

“Where do either of you draw the line for what’s permissible? Shall we make jokes about Terri Schiavo? abortion? the Pope’s illness? tsunami victims? Abu Ghraib? Is nothing off limits?”

Depends on the context and the intention and how it is made. Ever watch a stand-up show about actualities? Probably not. To survive the harsh realities of life you have to be able to laugh at the real life sometimes. Laughing is a common human survival tactic.

“I made a simple request: To keep politics off this professional list. It is beyond me why this request is being belittled as if it has no merit.”

Your request has no merit in this context as there WAS no political comment on the list. You choose to make that interpretation. That is your problem. Not mine or the lists. You crave an apology. As there is nothing to make amends for you will not get one. At least not from me.

Have a nice Easter Holiday and life.

I will say no more in this matter, not to the list and not to you.

— end of my last reply to Isabelle —

And that was the end of the BOO HISS incident. I haven’t really paid attention to if Isabelle is still on the list or not. Might be in “lurk-mode”.

—–

The mailinglist I am reporting from is about InDesign.

Commentary written July 26th, 2005

The philosophical aspects of doing something “just because you can” are interesting in all contexts.

That morning I read an article discussing exactly those aspects – and not particularly Bill Clinton. That his name at all was mentioned was as an example of someone who used that expression for something he did.

The article however was about the general tendency to do something just because you can/could and what that can lead to.

When the exact same argument was used about converting fonts in a particular way, I was reminded about what I read in that article and made that comment.

Who would have known that just by mentioning Bill Clintons name and that sentence in the same breath would push such buttons with somebody? I certainly didn’t.

I will never apologize to anybody for it though. I very simply have nothing to apologize about as I see it.

The difficulty with communication on a mailinglist – particularly an international mailinglist with people from all over the world – is that it is bound to sometimes arise misunderstandings.

It is hard to express in writing what you want to say in a way so nobody ever get offended or reads in meanings into the mails that aren’t there.

Some people on these public lists also are extremely touchy and will misunderstand no matter how you express something or no matter what you say.

Some people like to read in political or religious or other meanings into something said, even though that was never the intention of the author of the mail.

This was such an occasion.

I’ve saved the communication as it is interesting to see how fast something can deteriorate on a public list.

The storm blew over in a couple of days, but it was rather nasty while it lasted.

It’s been quite on the InDesign list ever since. Some people must have unsubscribed…. 😉

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Back to normal

Malca and Nini 1970

BUT LIFE GOES ON AND BACK TO NORMAL. I told Malca about Tedy and she was just as shocked. We also – again – talked about me coming to Israel again. Haven’t been there since 1993. Somehow you realise that sometimes things CAN be too late and also that nobody is immortal. Presently I cannot afford going to Israel even though I can stay at Malca’s. It is more expensive to fly to Israel from Sweden than it is to fly to the US. I first have to pay what I owe the IRS, plus pay back what the unemployment agency by mistake paid me twice. As I now again only work 25 percent, my income is not exactly great.

I don’t really mind being unemployed – particularly not in the summer and when the weather is fine. I’ve always had lots of things to do and even so don’t have enough time for everything I would like to do (some things I am unable to do due to the lack of money, but that is something else).

I’ve been scanning my old slides from Israel from 1965 – 1974. Slow job. Boring job. But it had to be done before the slides become totally unusable. Some are next to unusable and will need a lot of editing to be possible to view. So, now only have the rest of the slides from 1974 to 1991 to still scan… 1992 I went back to regular photos with negatives and paperprints. The oldest slides also are in frames with glass which have destroyed some of them. They look like they’ve got some disease…

It’s been interesting though to see all those old slides. Made me wonder where some of those people on them are today.

My slidescanner, a Konica Minolta DiMage Scan Dual IV, is very slow, but actually quite good at scanning. At least after I switched from the application that came with the scanner to VueScan instead. Good piece of software with lots of settings. I also fell in love with Photoshop CS2 new spot healing tool. Very effective on those old spotty scanned slides.

The last three weeks approximately the weather has been fantastic. Warm, dry and sunny like around the Meditarranean. If only the grass would stop blooming – I’m extremely allergic to it.

Yesterday my bike suddenly had a flat tire. I had no tools to fix it and no spare inner tires either, so had to walk the bike to bike-repair in Skärholmen to get it fixed. I haven’t changed a flat tire on a bike since I was 10, and then it was a one gear bike – my present bike has 24 – so I have no idea how to do that even if I had had the tools for it. It was the back-tire that collapsed. I collected the bike this afternoon. Felt handicapped without it.

Next week I’ll work the whole week at DD. We are taking turns so the office won’t have to be closed during summer. We could lose more clients if we did. So, have to go up in the morning for five whole days… Ah, well.

I hope it will rain the whole week… 😉 Which by the way would be good for the nature as it is ever so dry everywhere.

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Sorrow. Great sorrow.

After not sleeping all that well, being so sad after learning that Tedy is dead and that it really is too late to see him again, I got restless and needed to go out. Went for a long walk with the camera, up on the hill and down again through the woods. It was overcast, very silent, just me and the birds. I shot around 120 photos on my regular trees, the sky, the road, flowers etc. in that area. It is soothing.

At one time when sorrow almost overwhelmed me, I shot some sky-pictures of the summerclouds. I looked at the small cloud in the center of the larger ones and thought of Tedy. It did not make me any happier.

When I got back home, sun was out again and it was time for a coffee in the sun and catching up with the latest magazines. Tedy was never far away in my thoughts.

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Nobody is immortal…

Tedy 1979

Do you get less sad to learn that somebody dear to you died, even if it happened almost four years ago? The answer is no, absolutely not. You get just as sad, when you learn about it almost four years after it happened.

I got the following mail tonight from Tedy’s younger brother Alex:

“Hi Nini,

By chance we found your site and read about Tedy. We are very impressed about the details we have found about the relationship between Tedy and you.

Tedy 1972

We are very sorry to inform you that on 11th September 2001, Tedy passed away because of a heart break. It was suddenly and unexpected. He died at his home alone, without any emergency first aid. We all were shocked and cannot believe this disaster still now.

It’s so symbolic date, a great architect was died when the twins towers were destroyed in the US ….

If you want to contact with us our address is: (deleted for this page) yours, Alex.”

Tedy 1972

Tedy 1972

I was stunned, and shocked, and went all cold and numb. And so sad. It doesn’t matter that it is now almost four years ago. I didn’t know till now. How would I have known hadn’t his brother found my site and my page about Tedy? For a very long time I intended to write to Tedy. I wanted to know if life got any kinder to him, if he ever got happy and content with life? But I never got around to writing for some reason. So we never got a chance to talk again. Or to meet again.

The way he died does not surprise me though, knowing how passionate he could be about things, any things. It kind of fits.

I will of course answer Alex, but first this has to sink in. It is hard to imagine an Israel and a Tel Aviv where Tedy no longer is. He was an important person in my life. I would like to believe that I was too in his. I think I was.

Me and Tedy 1972

Oh Tedy. I miss you so, and I weep for you. I always loved you.

Page about Tedy here.

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It is a BIG difference to work 75 percent instead of 25 …

It is a BIG difference to work 75 percent instead of 25 percent like I did the previous year. I’ve still got the 25 percent at my old job, plus the 50 percent at the newspaper. Much less time to write something here. I enjoy the work at the big daily newspaper. I just wish I could quit my 25% work at my old workplace and get a full time employment in one single place. I have no idea what will happen after June 3rd when the job at the big newspaper comes to an end. Chances to get something full-time and steady are slim. I’ve got age against me. We will have to see what will happen. I’ll try to write more frequently here.

Spring is finally approaching. Snow is almost gone, after a winter with quite a lot of snow and actually rather cold weather compared to the last couple of years. The sun and light is now finally back.

This summer I will probably not be able to go abroad. Simply cannot afford it. Had to buy a new TV (the old one died) and just got advised I owe more income tax for last year. Not at all fun.

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I’ve got a job!

The above is the paper where I will be working

I’ve got a job! Finally, after 105 job applications and a total of two interviews, I’ve now got a halftime job for about five (5) months. I start on January 3rd and am on the job including the first week of June. The half-time is scheduled as such that you work 2 weeks full-time, is off 2 weeks, work 2 weeks full-time and so on. On the “off” time I will continue to work on and off for my former employer but they will no longer have access to me at any time during this period but only on my “off” weeks.

The new job is at one of the largest Swedish daily’s, at their internal Helpdesk. I will give Mac-support. Got it via contacts, not regular job-ads, and because of my knowledge of InDesign and other graphical applications among other things (they have recently gone over to InDesign for the production of the paper and will be ready with the whole conversion some time during spring 2005).

Contacts is probably the only way to get a job for people in my age-group. It is not a steady job and it is not full-time, but at least it is something for a period. I look forward to it.

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Darkness

The house opposite mine at night

It is very dark. Depressing. The sunup is approximately at 8.30 AM and sundown at around 3.30 PM. It will soon turn though. The longest night and the shortest day of the year is Dec 22nd. Then it will get lighter again. The only nice thing about this season is all the lights that everybody puts in the windows from Advent Sunday until about a week or two after New Years Eve. I do it too. I don’t celebrate Christmas (or Hanukkah), my neighbors that are from all over the world, many of them Muslim, don’t either, but we all put up the Advent Lights in the windows. Makes the darkness seem more friendly somehow.

Have said no to a short-term job at a competitor to my previous employer. Cannot work there if I still want to work on and off at my old workplace. It wasn’t worth it for a job for about 3 months even if that would have paid better. A pity, but… not possible. I need to still have a foot in at my old job also after the three months. Had it been for a longer period I might have accepted. Because of the competition between them and some old trouble between them, it was not doable.

All the snow is totally gone again. About +2 centigrades and the grass that was temporarily covered by snow now looks green… Wrong season.

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More snow

In the night to November 23rd, the second snowstorm in a week struck with about 30 cm snow as a result. Everything covered with white, new snow. Very beautiful. Very early in the season. I normally do not like snow. Bu when it is fresh and clean, it can be beautiful.

See winter-photos here

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First snow

Downstairs and the yard, Friday, November 19th, 2004

Day before yesterday the first snow for this season arrived. It was heavy snowfall with heavy winds all day long and resulted in about 20cms of snow. When it finally stopped snowing, it became cold. Today has been sunny and -5 centigrades. Tonight is even colder. It looks like it is going to continue like this for still a couple of days. It is very early in the season. The neighbors below (a young couple who have no idea about how to tend their piece of garden) have still not moved the garden furniture inside – or an office chair that they brought out some time in August. All is now covered by snow, including their grill.

In the end Ulla called me Thursday. Her daughter Rafaela has now moved in with her now boyfriend and left home. I will go to Ulla tomorrow, see her and her husband Feri and the dog Igor and eat her good food. That will be nice.

Malca also called the other night from Israel. She keeps wanting me to come for a visit. I still feel the safety situation isn’t what I would like it to be to go to Israel. I also cannot afford it presently. Would be good to leave the winter though.

Got the latest brochure from the SF bookstore here the other day. Saw that Stephen Donaldson has released the first part in a third and final trilogy about Thomas Covenant. I’ve read the previous books (and all his other books as well) and am looking forward to go get this one too soon. Stephen Donaldson is one of my favorite Fantasy and SF authors.
The Runes of the Earth (The Last Chronicles of Thomas Covenant, Book 1) Stephen R. Donaldson More info here

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Keeping in contact

When yesterday reorganizing my workroom and making room for some papers, I found Tedy’s letters from 1974-75. All nine (9) of them. Re-read all but one yesterday. Have one more to go. Slow reading for me because of handwritten Hebrew – even if his handwriting is easy to read (compared to letters I get from Malca) – and his letters are long. I really have to write to him. Or call him (calling to Israel from Sweden is a bit too expensive though). He has been on my mind a lot lately. I wish he had email.

I also should call Ulla. I am bad at keeping in contact with people. She is as bad as me with that, which does not make a good combination.

Weather is boring, grey, very cloudy, +5-7 centigrades, some rain. It is November. Worst month of the year when it comes to lack of light and sun. You can get depressed for less.

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Some people…

Some people hate you – and say they do – just because you speak your mind and do not agree with them or to some idea you won’t just accept at face value and agree to it.

Saying they cannot stand you because you do not agree with them leads nowhere. Saying on a mailinglist that “You’re foolish brat. And quite frankly you don’t belong” and “frankly, I cannot stand you” is way out of line. Calling me a brat I should maybe take as a compliment. I am not really in an age where I can be a brat. Call me a bitch, but brat? Bitch I can live with.

That is sad, very sad. For him, not for me. To me it points to a frustrated person that has difficulties listening to other peoples opinions. Maybe he also has difficulties not being agreed to by a woman. I don’t know. I don’t know this person other than by name on a couple of mailinglists.

With that much anger on a mailinglist (for something that didn’t even have to do with politics but ideas about UI for software), maybe it is luck that I am on another continent than he is. If I wasn’t I should maybe have to be scared for what this person might do. As it is, I feel sorry for him. And I don’t scare easily.

PS. I finished reading the Catteni/Freedom books by Anne Mc Caffrey. The fourth one was not at all as good as the three previous ones. Felt like an artificial add-on to the first three.
Am now reading a new book by Julian May called the “Conqueror’s Moon”. It isn’t at all that good as “The Saga of the Pliocene Exile”, “The Galactic Milieu Trilogy” and “The Rampart Worlds”. Those three series I enjoyed a lot. This new book, is.. eh… not sure yet after 151 pages of the first part of the “The Boreal Moon Tale”. We will see if it gets any better further into the story. The beginning was even boring.

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